I am writing this in desperation. My day has been unbelievably frustrating and is still not over. However, I am at home and I have a glass of wine in my hand so I'm hoping that that makes up for the fact that I will be working long into this night. The other fact that I am on antibiotics and really not fighting fit isn't helping. I want to hide under the bed covers but as I can't, I am doing what I can to rectify this day. Did I mention the glass of wine?
And somehow typing out frustration is helpful.
I really wanted my first post of the New Year to be about my plans. My goals and ambitions and what I was striving for. Instead it's a frantically beaten out primal scream.
Primal. That's the word. Where is that glass?
I need a little time to cool down. The drive home was dreadful because all that fatigue and frustration resulted in my paying NO attention at all to road safety. I'm amazed I'm alive. I ruminated and spoke out loud in my car until the phrase 'crazy lady' summed me up perfectly. I'm still scattered.
Anyhow. Enough of the whine and more of the wine. I am currently waiting on my piano to be delivered. There is obviously more to that story but know that this piano is beloved by me and is apparently coming to live in my house. I am determined to be worthy of it, but that story must wait for another day.
Right now I just want to say a happy new year to y'all and to 2013. I have plans and ideas for this year to come but the glass of wine is almost empty and the pizza will be delivered soon and my piano is coming home. And I have work to do. And thoughts to process and put aside. There must be some calm because I am not made to live in this chaos.
But happy new year to you, blog readers. I have no idea who some of you are but you seem to come back pretty regularly. And those of you who comment on my prattling, how nice it is to hear a voice from the other side. May we continue to chatter on through the lean scribbling and the plenty. And how I take pleasure in your thoughts and postings. My pen pals of the 21st century variety.
As is said in afrikaans, gelukkige nuwe jaar!